[unfortunately for bruce, wonderland was not kind. it never had been, and it wasn't about to start because of one man. but it wasn't just that wonderland was not kind, it was that wonderland was often cruel. that was why, at the same time that it had pulled bruce here, it had also pulled wanda maximoff.
in a lot of ways, she's starting to understand why it was so easy to exploit him. fears that had once seemed pointless, distant, dramatic, even, were starting to take hold for herself. as bruce would well know, the road towards recovery and self-acceptance was that started and stopped. it was often a dance of one step forward only to take two steps back. clint had been kind to her during the battle, but that kindness was not enough to absolve her of all the guilt boiling in her chest.
but she was trying, really trying, back at home. bruce wouldn't know that. he wasn't there when steve gathered them all together. she wondered how much of the battle in sokovia bruce could even remember. it was better that he hadn't been there, she thinks, because it was to him that she felt she owed the biggest debt.
maybe wonderland understood that - understood that her guilt and his fear would be a terrible combination. that the two of them were better off without each other, and that was why it had pulled them together. to do cruelty to each other, simply by existing.
so when bruce goes to seek solace alone, it's wanda he runs into. how else could this play out? when had the universe ever been fair?
her heart stops when she sees him and he throat grows tight. she hadn't expected -- well, she hadn't expected any of this. so maybe she should stop expecting.]
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in a lot of ways, she's starting to understand why it was so easy to exploit him. fears that had once seemed pointless, distant, dramatic, even, were starting to take hold for herself. as bruce would well know, the road towards recovery and self-acceptance was that started and stopped. it was often a dance of one step forward only to take two steps back. clint had been kind to her during the battle, but that kindness was not enough to absolve her of all the guilt boiling in her chest.
but she was trying, really trying, back at home. bruce wouldn't know that. he wasn't there when steve gathered them all together. she wondered how much of the battle in sokovia bruce could even remember. it was better that he hadn't been there, she thinks, because it was to him that she felt she owed the biggest debt.
maybe wonderland understood that - understood that her guilt and his fear would be a terrible combination. that the two of them were better off without each other, and that was why it had pulled them together. to do cruelty to each other, simply by existing.
so when bruce goes to seek solace alone, it's wanda he runs into. how else could this play out? when had the universe ever been fair?
her heart stops when she sees him and he throat grows tight. she hadn't expected -- well, she hadn't expected any of this. so maybe she should stop expecting.]
They took you, too.