You... Weren't. I'm sorry, Tim but those videos were...

( more excuses?

tell him how obsessed we were

he rubs the bridge of his nose tiredly. this isn't him - this isn't the Brian he used to be. the one who could light up the room with a smile, the one who could practically make flowers bloom just with how radiant he always seemed to look. now he was nightmarish in comparison and oh god Tim is absolutely justified in his pain.

he has no excuse - Alex isn't an excuse. the hooded man('s obsession with), the masked man, they're no excuse. Not when Brian began to assimilate the once blank spots in his own memory.

because this- fuck, this isn't about the ark or the operator, it goes deeper than that. this is about the quintessential sense of betrayal that he placed upon his best friend. )

( he shakes his head. )

... Before all of this happened.... I worried back then too. But I could show it and then everything changed and--

I'd take it all back this very instant if I could. I'd make it up to you however I could.