I know- I know that, and I want to make things right but I don't know how.
( the truth is, although Alex may have shot the gun - it's still on Brian that Jay got shot. it doesn't matter if it could have happened "at any time" and there is no conceivable excuse his guilt can settle with.
that he settles with a tired sigh - a choked noise, really, teary in the back of his throat, warm but bitterly so - is a miracle, but he knows yelling back at Tim will solve absolutely nothing )
( he doesn't want to be the better person. he wants to make things right. )
... You ever dream of the masked guy? Ever wondered how he feels 'bout any of it?
( he swallows a heavy lump, rubbing the bridge of his nose with both hands again )
The-- the thing living in my head.. I know it didn't care as much as you, or me, about anything. About Jay, about Jessica, it just... It doesn't excuse me but it's like having another voice in your head trying to speak louder and I...
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( the truth is, although Alex may have shot the gun - it's still on Brian that Jay got shot. it doesn't matter if it could have happened "at any time" and there is no conceivable excuse his guilt can settle with.
that he settles with a tired sigh - a choked noise, really, teary in the back of his throat, warm but bitterly so - is a miracle, but he knows yelling back at Tim will solve absolutely nothing )
( he doesn't want to be the better person. he wants to make things right. )
... You ever dream of the masked guy? Ever wondered how he feels 'bout any of it?
( he swallows a heavy lump, rubbing the bridge of his nose with both hands again )
The-- the thing living in my head.. I know it didn't care as much as you, or me, about anything. About Jay, about Jessica, it just... It doesn't excuse me but it's like having another voice in your head trying to speak louder and I...
( when did it start, really? )
Tim. Please.
( i need y-
.
. )
I miss you.